“Come to me, all you that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28
I don’t know your spiritual or religious beliefs. I can tell you mine. I believe that Christ is my Savior and that he died on the cross to bear my sins. I believe in God as the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. I can also tell you that on good days, this means a lot to me, but is easy to push to the side and think about something else. And, on bad days, when I find myself on my knees, this is all I can think about. Not necessarily proud of these facts, but they are honest.
I think there are times when everyone second guesses their faith, no matter what their faith is. When something tragic happens, like the death of a young person, it’s hard to understand. There is no way to make sense of it. When I found myself widowed and alone, I didn’t second guess my faith, but I did wonder how the pieces fit together. I couldn’t bear my worries by myself, so I asked, or begged, for answers. I begged for help, understanding, and strength.
I didn’t get the understanding, at least not for a long time, but I did get the help and strength. God carried me when I could not stand on my own. I was distraught and couldn’t see a way out, but He showed me. He gave me strength to go on. I was doing all the right things and didn’t know how I was doing it–that’s God. I wouldn’t say I felt restful, but I would say much of the heaviness lifted.
I know there are some, or many of you, who think this sounds strange because you don’t have a belief in God. You might not agree with anything I just said or you might angry that I would put such a testimony in this post. That’s okay–that is where you are and this is where I am and that is okay. I am not thrusting my beliefs on you or condemning yours. I encourage you to seek options. If what you are doing isn’t working or you don’t know how to find what you are seeking, now might be a good time to ask God for a little help. It couldn’t hurt. If you are a Christian or spiritual, but haven’t been close to God, I hope you reconnect with that side of you. If you are a devout Christian, lay your worries at His feet. Above all, I hope you find solace, understanding, and strength no matter what you believe.